Frustration

Every time I get called "Najma" by a professor, I go into a small period of not-knowing-what-to-do, only to decide, after a while, to do the easiest thing: nothing..
Now I know both of the dean's associates know about my blog, both are very kind and encouraging however, and though it's weird, I still feel comfortable writing here.

These last two weeks were very frustrating. I have been struggling with two subjects: Microwave and Electronic Communications. The thing is, I know I can get good at them and I know I can love them, but as we have been told many times by our professors: A good communication system requires a good transmitter, a good receiver and a good environment. And it's certain that we have big transmitter problems in these two subjects.
What makes me frustrated is the fact that the seniors in the Electronics dept. study the very same material we study in Microwave, only by a different professor, and they LOVE IT!! This makes me VERY jealous and if it wasn't for our busy schedule, I would've attempted to attend their lectures too!

I exhaust myself so much that the few hours I spend sleeping I always dream of solving problems and deriving equations, and it's like a nightmare, my brain just wouldn't stop obsessing about the whole thing.

Today I decided to do something about it and headed to the room of one of our professors and told him all about my frustration. He promised to do something and I trust it would be good.
I only realize how fast I can talk when I'm frustrated. I go into a fast-forward mode, and let it all out. If the professor wasn't so helpful, I might have very much resorted to crying! But his attitude, and just remembering how much I love and respect him and many other professors in my college, turned the rest of my day to a good one.

And again came the weekend. Like every weekend, we all have HUGE studying plans. But unlike every weekend, I WILL HAVE THESE PLANS DONE, or I'm going to be angry at myself, and I can get really angry so I'd better watch out!

Wish me luck :)

PS: I've been posting some photos of our garden in my Flickr page, if you care to see :)